|Hi! I'm alive! This is going to be a long one.
||[Sep. 12th, 2011|11:15 am]
Seems like everybody is simultaneously missing LJ :) Including me! I don't know what to write about or what you are most interested in.|
I'm very pregnant
I live in Minnesota now
WI is still exploding and it hurts my soul because there's not much I can do anymore :(
I have been knitting like a demon
I am happy
Goldfish has been kicking up a storm. I'm glad to feel this, even when s/he is kicking me really hard. I feel more connected to this little kiddo now, and am growing more and more prepared for this by the day. I just need to trust my body, trust myself, trust my husband. I think Jeff is going to be really great at the birth. At first, I was a wee bit doubtful, but he's been his awesome, supportive self, and I think he's more educated than I am about some things. I never thought I'd be glad to have struggled through so many kidney stones/infections, but I am so thankful I've been in lots of pain before, so I know how I react under physical duress. I realize labor will be that x10, but. I can assume I will react in a similar fashion, at least at first.
I meet my midwife on the 20th. So strange to be switching providers more than halfway through the game. But good. Glad to move on to this model. Have been unimpressed with the care I've gotten so far. Good thing I've been studying nutrition, etc on my own. No support from my OB in RF, really. Awesome to get so many pictures, but no support for the whole me/baby. Just numbers, etc.
Am starting to feel like G is a girl. Have absolutely nothing to base it on. And I don't KNOW in my heart or anything, just vague inklings. Still adding to the short list of middle names. Still struggling for a good short list of boy first names. We keep wanting to dive heavily into nerdness re: boy names. We actually had a several minute long, very serious, conversation about the name "Doctor".
Minnesota, Minnesota, Minnesota. Weird, weird, weird. I tear up every time I start using "we" in reference to WI, and I have to correct myself. I love Wisconsin fiercely. I feel like a terrible person for abandoning her right now. The GOP still won't stop the madness, now wants to classify fetal cells as BODY PARTS. Still making voter ID issues stupid and difficult, firing people for sharing information about free IDs and such. I fought so hard. I gave so much. We didn't win our election, but I count it as a success. I am proud of the work I did, that we did, the example WI is setting, even when mainstream media doesn't care to report any of it. It has been so hard to step back, but it's out of my hands now. I need to focus on my family and my self now, and prepare for this crazy crazy thing I am about to experience.
I love living in the city so far. I get really fucking crabby about communal spaces (hallways, etc) being disrespected. I get really fucking crabby about people propping our security doors open late at night. BUT I like the noise, I like the sunlight, I like being able to walk to the corner to get a gyro. I like that Super Target is so incredibly close. I like hearing people speak different languages, and the smells from various kitchens wafting out of the windows in my neighborhood. I like that my husband is home a little quicker, and that his bus ride is so much more relaxing (and CHEAPER!) than having to drive to and from work. I love that things are open late enough so even though he works weird hours, we can still do things after work.
Apparently, I have to take a written driving test to get licensed in MN. And I have to have a MN license or ID to register to vote (my lease isn't good enough here, not that it would be in WI in a few more months, either). this is sort of inconvenient. Except that Jeff works in the same building as one of the DMV offices, so we already know where to go :)
I'm excited to have access to the library here. Like damn, and like whoa.
I'm excited that I can do things with friends here. I'm excited that I could hop on a bus right now and just go to MOA.
All in all, it's good to be me. We're still so nervous about how the whole budget/money thing is going to go. Like usual. It's OK, though. We're in that weird window where we make enough that we won't qualify for any assistance, but if we want the luxury of health insurance, we won't be able to save much. Hoping Jeff gets a good raise next month, and that the gain share check toward the end of the year exists and is generous so's we can breathe easier. But yeah. Things are good, I am well. I can't promise to do more than duck my head in here occasionally, but I thought I should at least say something, since y'all are doing it, lately :)